God has a way, of explaining His will. He is good, and clear, and patient. Part of that relies on us being good, and clear, and patient. It relies on us waiting. Listening. Humbling. Praying. Hoping. Trusting.
I have seen many things in the last 15 years. My eyes opened slowly, much like everything else in my life goes, slowly.
Diligent study. Diligent prayer. Diligent faith. Diligent humility. Constant assessment of self. Assessment of my alignment. Assessment of my intentions. My faith. My “why.”
I learned a while back what it means to ask and receive.
Nothing selfish. Nothing wasteful. Nothing greedy. Nothing lame AF.
Stay focused. It’s about the overall commission. The overall goals. The overall truth.
Believe it. Wholeheartedly. No doubt.
His will.
Amen.
-“Father said Mother alleged he was abusing the
children and screaming in his face telling him to hit her. He said, ‘I was freaking out, she had four faces and they all looked like she had down syndrome and jaundice. She told me to take my bible and go live in the ditch and die there. She told me to kill myself and nobody wants me around.’
According to Father, he then went into the bedroom and started shaking the headboard of the bed. Mother called the police and Father thought they were going to arrive and shoot him. He said, “I went in to grab the gun and thought maybe she’s right and put the gun…”-